Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

What Makes a Mother

By Jennifer Wasik

Written with love for all the Mother's missing their babies

I thought of you and closed my eyes

and prayed to God today

I asked, “what makes a Mother”?

And I know I heard Him say,

A Mother has a baby,

This we know is true.

But, God, can you be a Mother

when your baby's not with you?

"Yes you can!", He replied

with confidence in His voice,

"I give many women babies,

when they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime

and other's for a day

And some I send to feel your womb

but there's no need to stay."

I just don't understand this God,

I want my baby here.

He took a breath,

and cleared His throat,

and then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you

what your child is doing here.

If you could see your child smile

with other children and say,

"We go to earth to learn our lessons

of love and life and fear,

but My Mommy loved me oh so much

I got to come straight here!”

I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me

I learned my lesson very quick

My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much

but I visit her each day

When she goes to sleep

on her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek

and whisper in her ear,

Mommy don't be sad today

I'm your baby and I'm here.”

So you see my dear sweet one,

your children are okay

Your babies are here in My home

and this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me

until your lesson is through.

And on that day that you come home

they'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see

what makes a Mother

It's the feeling in your heart

It's the love you had so much of

right from the very start.

Though some on earth may not realize

that you are a Mother until their time is done.

They'll be up here with me one day

and know you're the best one.

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