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He was alive...Missing Oscar Day 31

Today marks 31 days that Oscar has been gone. I have decided it is time to try and stop dwelling on the day that he died, but rather focus on the days he was alive. On Oscar's Odyssey on this earth we had many things to be thankful for. First, Brian and I's prayer request from the beginning was to meet Oscar alive. To hold our newborn son, to snuggle him, for Theodore to meet his baby brother. Little did we know our love for Oscar was just giving him a glimpse of what he would have to look forward to once he got to Heaven. On this Earth we are suppose to love others the way God loves us. I think there is probably no greater love than that of a parent to a child. It is the most unconditional earthly love I believe that there is. We are blessed that we got to show Oscar that unconditional earthly love.


Another prayer request of ours was that through Oscar's journey and our families that God's strength and his love would be shown. I remember often it was said to me during my pregnancy "I don't know how you are doing this, you seem so strong" and that strength was God and continues to be. Those 29 days were not easy on our family. For anyone that has cared for a critically or chronically ill individual it is overwhelming. It is scary. And it is hard. You have no idea what the next day will bring, but you have to keep going and you just trust that whatever comes the Lord will help you through. The Lord has been with us since the beginning of Oscar's Odyssey and God continues to show his strength, love, and peace daily to us.

One of the final things that we are so thankful for is we got to share and get to continue to share Oscar's story. Our son was deeply loved by not only us, his family, but many others we will never meet in person. He was prayed for and thought of by individuals all over the United States and even parts of the world. Oscar's testimony, yet short, I believe planted many seeds and individuals will come to know Jesus because of our Oscar.

As we approach Oscar's two month birthday. I will post on the OscarStrong Facebook page his story for the next 29 days starting on January 18, 2018. As Oscar's parents we have the task now to not only remember Oscar, but continue to make the world a better place like he did by providing hope and joy to others. 

                                     
We love and miss you Oscar Graham. #OscarStrong


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