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Our Rainbow Turns 1

In one week our rainbow baby boy Brooks will be one. It is hard to believe he has been with us for a whole year. I remember the morning I found out I was pregnant with him and the tears of joy and hope that came with the promise of his precious life. 


For any of you that have a rainbow it is as if you live in between joy and sadness so often during their first year of life. Oscar graced this Earth for 29 days and I remember when Brooks turned 28 days and 9 hours it was 4am on Saturday, August 3, and I just watched him because I wanted to be sure he lived and didn’t die like his older brother. He didn’t our Brooks is here and is such a joy to our family.


As I think back on these past 12 months I always wonder what it would be like if Oscar was here too. How would our visits to Plummer Pool looked last summer, Cedar Point trips in the fall to HallowWeekends, playing in the snow outside, and our many quarantine bike rides. I am sure they would have looked a little different, but yet still so much the same. Some of the harder moments is seeing Theodore and Brooks relationship grow. I love when Theodore makes Brooks belly laugh it is the best and how I wish Theodore could make both Oscar and Brooks laugh and laugh. Brooks has also started to notice Oscar’s picture on the hallway wall upstairs. I tell him that is his older brother Oscar and someday soon he will be saying Oscar’s name too.


So here’s to a first birthday for our rainbow baby, Brooks, and so deeply wishing Oscar was here to celebrate with us too. 

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